tomorrow is a new day and the 1st day of my diet getting back to normal. for my christmas present to myself this year i think i will weigh in at around 105 :) merry christmas to me …. stay motivated…
ugh thanksgiving now i’m back to square one! if i’m not around 100 by new years i’ma be pissed maybe i should start taking my measurements more. then i could at least tell if i am looking smaller.
something must be wrong with me. this just isn’t right. maybe once i finally lose 10 more pounds i’ll be a little more satisfied. i need to spend more time with babushka. i think we both feel the same about things right now.
messed up badly these past 3 days. i have to get my head in the game. i can do this, i can do this, i can do this i keep on complaining and not doing anything about it. I know that i’m annoying myself and everyone around me with this. it just needs to change. i’ve just gotten lazy. tomorrow is a new day…. and i have till thursday to reach my goal. totally possible
i must do this. i have to prove myself wrong.
i’m beginning to hate everyone in my family. i don’t really know why but all i know is that i’m beginning to not stand them. i feel like i’m trapped. The only thing that makes me actually happy right now is alex. he is just so wonderful. I guess i just don’t feel loved by my family anymore. And i’m starting to wonder if i even love them anymore. everytime i...
i hate feeling big stupid thighs… stupid calories… driving me mad! feeling guilty after eating or for eating in general is a problem. this is never going to stop. but at least i can try
this is bad. i’m pretty much back to square one, which sucks. Goal
well i fell off the weight loss wagon this weekend :( have to start trying harder (crash dieting here i come) halloween candy didn’t help. although it was a super fun weekend! i went from being dressed as a grape, to a jedi, to a daisy this year. i think it was pretty successful soon.