November 2009
11 posts
tomorrow is a new day and the 1st day of my diet getting back to normal.
for my christmas present to myself this year i think i will weigh in at around 105 :)
merry christmas to me
…. stay motivated…
ugh thanksgiving
now i’m back to square one!
if i’m not around 100 by new years i’ma be pissed
maybe i should start taking my measurements more. then i could at least tell if i am looking smaller.
something must be wrong with me.
this just isn’t right.
maybe once i finally lose 10 more pounds i’ll be a little more satisfied.
i need to spend more time with babushka. i think we both feel the same about things right now.
messed up badly these past 3 days.
i have to get my head in the game.
i can do this, i can do this, i can do this
i keep on complaining and not doing anything about it. I know that i’m annoying myself and everyone around me with this. it just needs to change. i’ve just gotten lazy.
tomorrow is a new day…. and i have till thursday to reach my goal.
totally possible
i must do this.
i have to prove myself wrong.
huge
i’m beginning to hate everyone in my family.
i don’t really know why but all i know is that i’m beginning to not stand them.
i feel like i’m trapped. The only thing that makes me actually happy right now is alex. he is just so wonderful.
I guess i just don’t feel loved by my family anymore. And i’m starting to wonder if i even love them anymore. everytime i...
big
i hate feeling big
stupid thighs… stupid calories… driving me mad!
feeling guilty after eating or for eating in general is a problem.
this is never going to stop.
but at least i can try
this is bad.
i’m pretty much back to square one, which sucks.
Goal
well i fell off the weight loss wagon this weekend :(
have to start trying harder (crash dieting here i come)
halloween candy didn’t help. although it was a super fun weekend!
i went from being dressed as a grape, to a jedi, to a daisy this year. i think it was pretty successful
soon.
